Can't Focus

I've not been able to focus due to my mom's stoke. Its part of not being in prison. As I made other people suffer; so must I and my family suffer. A lot of fellow con's in here go on about "Being Strong", ya well, I'm the one who did the crime yet my family suffers. It's part of the justice system that never is mentioned - in polite circles. My family's suffering is by far the worse, for me, about doing time. I get so frustrated about not being able to help. Other than writing supportive letters. But when my mom has a stroke and her mind is effected. Then what do I do? What do I do if she doesn't remember me? What does that do to me - in my heart. I try to be strong but the thoughts of my mom being pushed around in a wheelchair and not being able to remember me. It crushes me. Yes, the tough on crime people are getting their money's worth with regard to my stay on the state. Maybe someone could help with my mom's suffering. I hope everyone who reads this is well and never ends up where I am. All for now. Andrew